Day#14 - Progress Alights Upon The Windowsill

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I am gladdened by the numbers today, in spite of their not being dramatic. At this point seeing any sign of diminishing poundage is a good thing. I am down by another two tenths of a pound! It's not much but at least I'm going in the right direction:-).
 What has been nagging at my heels over the last two weeks is that I'm writing a public blog about weight management, and not reporting losses! 
Imagine if you will, a person, such as myself, proclaiming that the true secret of controlling one's own weight is not only possible, but not a secret at all. When one makes such statements, and cannot back them up by results that astonish the reader, well, let's just say that people might well go away with the idea that this is just another "so called method" that can be tried and tossed aside, after it ultimately works for a couple of days, and then stops working altogether. 
Believe me, I've been there! 
My only answer is that the true continuing story in my life has been weight gain. Yes, I have lost weight and then and gained it back, using so many methods and tricks and pills, that they are now uncountable. 
And yes, I have used the method I am currently using before, and I then gained some of the weight back. What's different? The difference, my friends is that this time I know exactly how it happened. This time I am able to claim full and complete responsibility for the gain, by admitting that I stopped paying attention. When I stopped paying attention my body resumed the pattern it has been in since I was a child. The good news is that I am now paying close attention once again, and although it is taking a bit of time to get the ball rolling in the direction I want it to go - I am fully in charge of where it goes. 
Paying attention, not becoming impatient, and not letting the tediousness of the progress become a barrier is all I need to focus on. 
This is what it looks like to be charge: patient unshakable awareness.

Day #13 - Tax Prep Day and Weight Control

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First let me explain my not posting yesterday: 
I just didn't feel like it!
Are you completely flabbergasted that I went through an entire day with nothing to say? Don't be. It happens more often than you might think. Besides, yesterday I lost no weight, and beyond that I once again gained those two tenths back. Nothing more to report on that front.
All I can do is what I've been doing. I got nothing else:-) 
Oh, and it was the same story all over again today, which leads me to the title of this post. Yes this is the dreaded day. Even as I write this I am sitting in the tax preparer's office - waiting. 
Sound familiar? 
Waiting, it seems, is what I am intended to do these days. Interestingly, I am required to wait less concerning taxes than for my weight to diminish. Perhaps if I were somehow enabled to write off a cupcake somewhere I'd be making faster progress? Naw, that's just crazy talk. No idea of what could possibly make me so nuts just sitting here in this crowded office, filled with people simply desperate to pay money to the government. 
Together we're all waiting, wouldn't you know it, so so patiently...

Day #9 - The Point of No Return

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I have been at the same weight for the last 6 days; no gain, but then again, no loss... 
It was not so long ago that given the present circumstances, I would have thrown in the towel, and gone back to eating as though I had no control concerning the pressures of gravity on my body. Truth be told, if this were the very first time I was using this method to lose weight, I would be surrendering to the seemingly inevitable and ongoing expansion of my belly. I would quite literally be in the moment of giving up. 
Going this long without visible results represents the proverbial straw that breaks the camel's back, or the tipping point at which I become convinced  that surrendering all hope of ever losing weight, is all that is left to me. However, this is clearly not the first time that I have tread this path. I have been here before. I have seen the numbers reflecting absolute stability when I am so desirous of change. What does it all mean? It means that I remain as dedicated to results as is possible. It means that I am incredibly thankful for the experience that informs my steadfast and unwavering (you already know my current mantra, right?) - patience.

Day #8 - Yep, yep, yep...

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...and isn't that comes of expectations?:-) I expect when my wife or son has to run back inside the house to retrieve some vital piece of equipment (Read: keys, cell phone, computer, comb, piece of paper, thumbtack, roll of twine, kitten, you-name-it) before we can head out on an excursion to the store, that they will be quick. I expect that when I plant something on the first day of Spring, that I should then stand back to watch as the plant matures fully (time lapse style) before my eyes. I expect that people who are entrusted to lead companies will think about the impact of their actions on the world, that leaders of countries will be careful, thoughtful, and and not so quick to anger. 
The actions that I take arising from these expectations, are not that I drive away and leave people standing on the curb; nor do I keep my mouth shut when companies and politicians act in the belief that we the people are stupid. 
Do I feel myself to be in a hurry when waiting for the rest of the world to come around to my way of thinking? Well, yes a little, but that does not lead me to giving up. I do not give up when confronted with everyday events, and I do not give up when leaders make bad decisions. If then, I am able to be patient in those areas, it just follows that I can be patient while waiting for the scale to catch up with what I am doing each and every day - paying close attention to the balance. 
I have water on for tea, I do believe that I'll just nonchalantly wander into the kitchen right now. What? Oh, no reason...
My weight, in case you hadn't guessed, remains exactly the same as it been for the last several days.-P

Day #6 - As Always My Lesson Is...

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Patience! Naturally, I'm thankful that my weight is not increasing. In spite of the fact that it has remained quite steady for the last 6 days, I find myself just a bit anxious. What if, I think in my ongoing internal dialogue, my plan which includes the drop of at least a pound in the next couple of days (I do accept that it could even take another three of four days) doesn't go as planned? What if, that little voice whines, you continue to weigh this same amount for all eternity? That's not going to happen, I say with bravado. I've done this before and staying at the same weight while I continue to do all the things necessary to lose, is definitely what works! The voice replies with only a surly and rude raspberry noise. No really, I continue on more sure of myself now, than even moments before, I have even seen my weight escalate on the day before I see a loss. What I'm doing has always worked in the past and there is no evidence of any sort that informs me that something is different now. Those last words have effect. They act like water on a wicked witch, and the voice shrieks, noooooo as it melts away into nothingness. Patience in the face of an overly active imagination. Ah yes, I am waiting for my expectations to be met, and I have every reason to be - patient:-)

Progress

Across the street.

On the days I make progress on the scale I feel generally superior to all things living. When I do not make visible progress I become morose and unsettled. Whether I see my progress or not I continue to make my way toward the goal I've set for myself. All that needs to be done is exactly what I'm doing. My biggest lesson in life is, of course...patience.